coming home

Like the forest, with all its mystery and deafening silence, I thrive. I like to keep myself beneath the facade of the acceptable. I like to keep it that way. Besides it is the only thing left.

Going uphill exhausts and consumes me, nearly taking all the essence. Then I ask myself ‘when will this end?’ Opening the door to my office, I sighed. I used to have the ardor of knowing the littlest detail and finding a way to make everything work in harmony. But now, all I think about is how to survive the day at work.

I prayed for enlightenment. Scouring the dusty forgotten storage, I think of years ahead. But right this moment, I have one thing certain. It’s time for me to write again.

where to go

An unheard place
Where sunshine resides
Where tears subside
I would like to go there
But where is where?

A faraway refuge
For a beaten soul
That’s beyond reach
I want to stay there
How beyond is beyond?

A different retreat
Finally I can savor
Finally you will honor
I want to rest there
So when is it finally final?

surge

It is a tingle
Not the kind you’d like to have
Or you yearn to feel.

You sense the heat rise
Heart desperately beating
Your mind started to reel.

Without a warning
Fingers start to wildly thump
Praying to stop the wheel.

Holding it together
You look at your reflection
It’s all just surreal.

When it mellows down
To a point of regret
You’d hope it’s unreal.